third day in

happy new year. sayonara, 2012. you were a wily beast who stole my sleep and a large chunk of my sanity. i am still seeing the personal trainer and am down 13 lbs since thanksgiving. eating much less crap has pretty much done the trick. i am going to turn into a bowl of oatmeal. trying to refocus on career this year. jumping back into a 5-day week, since the flexibility may or may not have been holding me back. i've never gone this long without earning a promotion, ever. longing for my pre-child focus and copious free time. never feel like i'm doing a good enough job, at work or at home. the joy and conflict of parenthood. wearing more color. waiting for spring. that's pretty much all that there is.